deflation.} You have never been betrayed nor have you betrayed. You don’t have the power to do so. It is absolutely impossible to be cheated in this life. In actuality, the memories you reflect are no more real than the soft or hard life affirming story you tell yourself and others in order to remain vigilant. You create a world of such grandeur or defeat (one being the same) so that you remain the victim or hero. Either way, you are always ‘looking out for your interest and investment.’ As long as you continue to deny this genuine truth, you will prolong the experience of being suspicious, caustic, paranoid, bitter, resentful, remorseful and quick to judge, while at the same time, seeing nothing but the guileless goodness you think you possess. If you continue to believe that someone has cheated you out of something or denied you something, that you feel you deserve, your overall state of health [along with you mental faculties: stress, anxiety, insomnia, depression, high blood pressure, and on and on and on] will surely suffer from it. NO one owes you anything. {And, moreover would be highly pissed IF you tried to offer.} Don’t insult yourself or the other by asking or receiving.
It can not be stated enough: when you place another in an elevated position, it causes him to be in an unnatural, awkward and uncomfortable situation. One of which is impossible to regulate and maintain. The lofty position makes it impossible for him to be able to communicate with you. And, when you place yourself in such an elevated so-called honorable spot, it is then YOU who is at his most vulnerable. Apt to be chained to flattery, praise and clothed in a ‘false coat of goodness.’ The unfortunate result is that you both end up competing and