AND OBSERVE YOURSELF: YOU’RE WAY ‘TOO’ BUSY.
You have been ‘jumping tracks’ placating your unfinished business and projects! You can postpone, negate, procrastinate in a lot of things, but not the shakedown ‘face the music of your soul’s dance’ ball being thrown your way. It’s high time to reclaim authenticity. The depth of your present phoniness [restlessness/boredom] is staring you in the face, “What Cha gonna do ‘bout it, Bud?” As long as you choose to pussy foot around, you are going to feel miserable and depressed which translates into un-productivity. As soon as you quit doing the things that make you feel hypocritical/ insincere, you will see the so yearned for productivity that eludes you. You can spread that ‘full of excuses’ gibberish all around to others, {About how you are making progress} but sooner or later you will have to come face to face with YOU. {and, the inherent shame you feel}
Stop running. You can only do that when you’re asleep. Stop lying. You can only do that to those who don’t give a gerbil’s coat of fur, anyway. It’s past time you ask yourself, “Who are you really?” You are no more or no less than the entire world that comprises your existence? Who else are you going to look at when the sun goes down and the sun comes up? Nobody but; You. Every place you see. Everywhere you go. Everything you touch. Everything you do. From the food you eat, the clothes you wear, the license plates that catch your eye, the music you listen to, the words you say and others say to you, the car you drive, the folks who bump into you randomly, the books you read, the movies you watch, the job you do: IT’S ALL YOU. Nobody else but; YOU. Ready to listen