“Your day will come,” you tell yourself with submerged sinister glee. Come on. Come down from that isolated insulated no bathroom ivory tower; you gotta piss, sometime. Realize you are not blameless, nor guileless. {Incidentally, the ones who have been were either killed, mutilated, crucified, or poisoned} Which do you prefer? Anyway, what are you trying to prove? How inconsolable are you? How delicate and sensitive? Yeah, right. In the end, what does that get you except yucky feelings of apathy, self-perpetuated exhaustion, unfounded guilt, fake remorse and yes, maybe, even a good poignant dose of drama-infused self-pity? And, in addition, should you choose to wallow in your “I’ve been done so wrong for so long song”, people will slowly start disappearing from your life.
Accept it. Your life is perfectly blueprinted according to your specifications whether your realize it or not. Just because you are not aware of and don’t understand all of the multi-faceted specifics involved, does not make the plan non-existent. It’s important to become more flexible. That’s the only way you are gong to have any fun. Why burden yourself with so much unnecessary iron rod authority? Who cares IF things go exactly as you planned? Whatever has occurred is the only plan that exists. Wake up to your life! Stop filling your mind with expectations. Expectations are designed to bring forth disappointment. It’s all geared to teach you to let go of any hint of a pre-fabricated life. Natural and convenient should be your mantra. If it’s not natural and convenient for you and to you, don’t do it. Otherwise, you will end up resenting the person or event. Believe it or not, the ‘twists and turns’ that show up